Arrrrgggg

I hate it when time slips away from me.  The last week has been a blur because it's inventory time at the store and even though I'm not in charge of it any more it is still very exhausting.  The bad thing is I'm burning myself out from the job, trying to get things done for the craft show in Nov and getting things done to try to get sales for the Etsy shop.  I'm taking some time off on sewing for the craft show and maybe the Etsy account and then taking a week off work while the DH is gone away for business and then sewing my heart out.

SO if I'm not sewing what am I doing?  Baking..do I need to bake? No, but I'm enjoying doing it and feeding it to other people.  Listening to all the compliments is stroking my ego big time and it helps with the disappointments from the business.

I know that with all my hard work, and a bit of my stubborness, I'll get the sales and things will work out in the long run.(or I'll gain too much weight from all the baking I'm doing!!)

Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments.---Henry Ward Beecher

Last night my post didn't get made, because by the time I got home from work I was exhausted.  Today started out with a ton of energy, I made 5 dozen oatmeal cookies, followed by double limoncello cookies and a loaf of banana bread with sun-dried blueberries.  After all that was completed, I made 3 candy cane holders.  I took a little break and for some reason I didn't make it back up to the studio.  I think my body is telling me to relax, inventory is almost here and then after that I can work really hard at getting things made for the Holiday Bazaar. 

It's really funny because I can open up and put out 50 boxes of fabric, but it's more exhausting tidying tables and getting organized for inventory.  By early Friday afternoon it'll be all done and over with and everything will be back to normal.  I don't like sitting and doing nothing..for me, these days, is going to Etsy, searching and trying to promote the business.  Hopefully soon, someone will discover my shop and buy something.  In the meantime, I'm still waiting for that day that I relax and do absolutely nothing!!


True relaxation, which would do me the world of good, does not exist for me.
Gustav Klimt

Fear

Today was one of those days where I didn't get much sewing done...the day job wore me out.  I put on the same music as yesterday, but today instead of inspiring me, it depressed me.  It was a day that my fears deveoured me.  Some days I'm my worse crictic and today was that day.  I've been really working hard at trying to promote my business and I still can't get any sales.  It's really frustrating because I know I have a great product and is high quality...because I am a perfectionist when it comes to my sewing.  I always have been afraid to take this step and sell any of my work because I can't handle failure, who can?  I even asked a complete stranger to critique my Etsy shop, because I need it to be as great as the product I sell.  I hate it when I get down on myself, but it's just so depressing when you try so hard and you get nowhere. 

I love it when I can overcome my fears..hopefully this to can pass!!!

What are your fears?  What have you done to overcome your fears?

I have accepted fear as a part of life - specifically the fear of change.... I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says:  turn back.  ~Erica Jong

Today I was up in my sewing studio working away making some things for the holiday bazaar and I did something I haven't done in a very long time...turn on the CD player and listened to music.  I was listening to the sounds of Animal Kingdom.  It inspired me to get several things done as it transported me into my comfort zone.  I actually finished 11 napkins today!!!  I also made a Amarula Carrot cake with an Amarula cream cheese frosting(yummy!!).  It's funny on things that can inspire a person.  For me it's music, a thought, a memory.  As I'm sewing or working on a project, my mind goes to another place..it relaxes me, but at the same time I work harder on getting things done because I feel relaxed and not like I'm under pressure to do something.  What inspires you?

Music and rhythm find their way into the secret places of the soul--Plato

Pursuing Dreams

I've been missing a lot of time here because I've been pursuing my dreams.  Dreams can be something very simple to something very complex.  Some dreams are easily accomplished while others have to be accomplished by long hours and hard work.  My dream of happiness with the full time job was easy by changing locations and stepping down.  My dream of running a successful sewing business is long hard work.  I've decided to enter a craft show in the fall and many hours of my "free" time has been sewing products for the show.  I'm hoping that the craft show will be one of the first steps in my dream of my sewing business.  I know that this dream will be worth pursuing in the long run.  I've been so afraid of pursuing a sewing business because I was afraid of failure and I'm my worse critic..I finally have enough faith in myself and the courage to do it, it just has taken over 50 years to get there.  I'd love to spend a little more time here if I can...if I can find the time between working the full time job and working at the part time job and all the other things that life throws at me.

I also have dreams of travel and finding "new" things.  Some of those dreams are also coming true through a lot of hard long hours of work.  I love all the different types of dreams we all have.  The dreams of a thin, lean body..dreams of travel...dreams of good health...dreams to live a long life...dreams of children...dreams of grandchildren...dreams of wealth...etc..

What are your dreams?  Are those dreams worth pursuing?  do you have the courage to make your dreams come true?

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them. Walt Disney